SomeonE..

Well...
today felt kinda mad ..
wat's on my mind ..
everyone's patience is limited ..included me !
someone told me ..
someone is hate me ..
so tat advise me better keep away frm someone ..
coz the one who hate me is scary ..
wat ?! wat a stupid n the funny thing i heard again !
it is childish ! i used to b tat ..
nw i understand the feel ..
while someone confront wif some reli chidish ppl doing something chilidish on him..
it is really annoying ..
im nt the kind of silly girl ..
easy to b bullied ..or let others play as a toy ..
or as i said ..nt easily to angry ppl ..
bt ..nt easily doesn't means wont !
i knw myself ..
or may b i duno exactly ..
how would i explode when my patience is used up ..
so...for the 'someone' ..
u r really doing something very stupid !
u hate me bcause of the stupid thing u imagine urself ..
u r really a stupid !
i wish i can scold u straight away !
let u knw how chidish u r !
bt ..i dun wan to hurt anyone ..
or ..i duno u ..i dun understanding u ..
so ..im nt sure what will u do after tat ..
i'm nt scared u will do anything to me ..
cause u cant do tat ..
n nt capable ..
bt i scare u harm urself u knw ..
small girl .. open ur heart ..
accept the others ..n accept the truth !
n stop doing silly thing tat make urself suffer ..
while doesn't make any big effect on the one u hate ..
bt sometimes may lost ur fren ..
or even the ppl u think is most important to u ...
while u r nt the most important to him...

wat he / she thinking ?

He is always be with her..
No matter..she’s happy ..sad.. mad ..
or even in a relationship ..
she was hurted ..by something ..someone …
he is here ,, always the loyal
he wont hurt her …she’s sure ..
or may b she’s sure ..
day by day ..
months …years …
he is here …midnight ..
he accompany her all the times ..
when she’s busy till late in the night ..
he jz wait her…with doing nth ..
may b ..wat he said .. is true ..
he expressed his feel to her ..
she knw tat ..
it wont b worthless to b with him ..
he wont hurt her ..
wont lie her..
he care her …
bt..howver ..
she keep hesitating ..
she duno ..or she’s nt sure…
whether..she loved him
or …jz like him..
like the way he treat her ..or his loyal ..or his love ..
may b juz bcoz tis can protect her frm getting hurt ..
yet ..he is cool sometimes …
she dun like tat ..
she is trying to tell him..
bt nt obviously ..
may b he is nt understand ..
he’s always nt understanding her ..
she think ..
she tried to b with him..
or she shud be with him..
bt she scare ..she really scare ..
she dun wan get hurt by anyone again ..bt
she dun wan hurt anyone too ..
sometimes it’s suffer ..she need someone..
or may b she need him ..to listen to her ..
to understanding her..to b with her anytime she need him..
she is in a dilemma ..
she hope she will b saved ..by someone or may b him..
bt..however..day by day …she cant feel the love anymore….
Sometimes it is there..bt ..she dun like or may b start to hate the ways he chat ..
She duno wat he thinks ,,,n wat he feels as well..
Did he loved her ..?
Like her?
Or ..?
I’m sry ..cause ..she is jz some kind of silly n stupid ..

17 Jun...没再流泪...

这天突然感觉有些不知所措..
当好友又把她与他的事告诉我..
好像蛮甜蜜的..
很自然..我从前的那个他..又浮现于脑海..
但..就这么一刻..我实在不晓得他到底是怎么一个人..
好久以前..我已不再想他..也许..这只是个谎言..
但..昨天看电视刚好看了几句..
我没错..所以我不需要折磨自己..
过去的就过去..错的是别人..欠也是他们欠我..
内疚也该他们内疚..我没必要让自己那么难过..
好了..那么一刻就够了..
没这个必要..我现在并不需要所谓的另一半..
还是好好的..听说..要向曾经伤害你的人报复..
就是活得比他好..
他...再也不算什么..
渐渐的..从前种种已被自我催眠地渐渐退色.
已经好久..我没再提起他...可是..我很清楚..
忘记并不那么容易..我更不愿在任何人面前提起他..
他..也许对我来说是一种羞辱..
有一个朋友说..当知道被骗..将立刻斩断那段关系..
想来也无谓..
也许吧..我就是这么感性..
偶尔想起那段日子总是那么心痛...
但..没这个必要..
最近感觉自己好像都好冷..
有人说我变了许多..有些可怕..
也许..有时自己也会对自己从前不会做的事感觉不寒而栗..
偶尔..我承认..或许失去了信心..或是一种保护..
但..慎重申明..任何对我好的人..我一定真诚相待..
由我以桃,报之以李..
但是...谁是羊..谁是披着羊毛的狼..
我已分不清了...

山盟海誓的最后....

门开了..
没有痕迹..
背影渐渐模糊..
最终消失在泪光中..
静静的..
没有任何语言...
没有任何举动..
凝视着乃摆动的板门..
直到..门终于恢复紧闭的状态...
此时..泪已流干..

望着墙上那三年前甜蜜的合照...

拾起相框掉落后的碎片...

深深的...一痕....
再也没有任何希望....
没有任何顾虑...
任何痛苦...
呆滞的眼神..
微微的笑容...
任由无情的血...
渐渐流干...
寒冷的夜晚...
剩下的是那染红的血地毯....
以及空气中渐渐流失的甜蜜气息...
和微弱的呼吸....
守着那扇紧闭的门...
最后...
啪..
掉落的是那背着山盟海誓的血戒指...